VENT...

 VENT...

People always expect more from us than we can often offer. And they don't accept our choices. We cannot be ourselves, we always have to represent what others expect from us, under penalty of being excluded from their list of affinities. And it doesn't matter how close these people are to us... our choices and decisions are worthless to them if they are not in line with what they think or think is correct. It doesn't matter that our decisions, our desires, have no influence on their lives. Everyone determines how the people who gravitate around them should proceed and that's it. You have to accept the common standard. It doesn't matter how much you've done or still do for these people. For them, it makes no difference. The difference is how you act. They can even tolerate you on a daily basis... after all, you can gradually prepare your ground, until your personal circle understands what you really want to do, how you want to act... but tolerating does not mean accepting. And at every moment you will be attacked by those who are most dear to you. Sometimes directly, sometimes indirectly. But attacks will come from all sides. It's no wonder that most people end up looking for help from psychologists, psychiatrists and the like... after all, if all the people around you are crucifying you, that means there's something wrong with you. And you end up getting into a whirlwind of contradictory emotions, lost in your own dreams and thoughts, not knowing exactly how to act... if you decide to be true and live your life... after all, it's unique and when you leave, your experiences they will have been yours and yours alone... there's no way to share them with anyone, however much that is your desire... after a while all those people who gravitate around you won't even remember why your way of being, his way of acting bothered them so much. But while you're on that plane... my God, how you bother people, simply because you exist and want to live in all your fullness. But people don't give you that right. You have to act according to the booklet that governs life in society and that's it. The big problem is that you don't fit the dictates of this booklet, but that's your problem... try to fit in or suffer the consequences...

In society, there are absolute truths that you must follow, under the risk of becoming a pariah in the group to which you belong. And I'm not talking about large social groups, I'm actually referring to the first of all, which you will become part of in the course of your life. This first group has its truths established for generations... and those truths are simply untouchable. These are long-established paradigms that guide the way each member of the group should act. That is, although we are taught from an early age that there is something called free will, such a thing does not exist in practice... simply excluded from it, in a subtle way... but so subtle that the members themselves are not aware of the purge they are carrying out...

People often complain about the feeling of not belonging to the first social group they were inserted into... which is ironic, since it is in this group that people should be welcomed with great affection... this should be their harbor safe. But very soon the individual discovers that, in the ocean of life, there are no safe harbors... and that the price to pay for the simple fact of being different from what they expect from you is sometimes too high...